My studying for this new job is taking a toll on me. It is definitions heavy and the language does not change much.
I am trying to hunker down today and get most of it done, but the nap won and the orange isn’t helping as much as I hoped it would.
I don’t rely on tarot, but sometimes it can offer an odd sense of validation.
- The Fool is a card that is positively hopeful about new beginnings and willing to take risks.
- We are betting on these new beginnings.
My time outside with Peri is precious.
I have been feeling a lot of solace in my feelings so far but also lots of loneliness. As I get to know new people, I remember that I need to share personal details. I feel like everyone at the bar just knew everything about me, because they sort of did. These new characters in my story do not know yet, and some old are learning more. I think part of me forgot hot to normally socialize, not just perform and tend to others.
I don’t know how to let go or at least easily switch between the two quite yet.
I live with just Peri and the loneliness doesn’t usually feel this big, at least I am capable of feeling out the sad and the angry. I even made breakfast this morning– I am trying to do all the things right. I am trying to take care of what I need and maybe I have finally made the space to feel lonely.
What a joke.
On other news, I did get my reverse snail back from pottery. Should he hide snacks or trinkets in his house?
3:08pm
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